Craving Perfection

Craving Perfection “… Nobody knew, I would eat enough for four, go to the washroom after every meal, or starve for three days straight. For ten years, nobody knew I had a problem with food—I fooled everybody. Nobody knew, not even me, that my eating disorder was never about food, I had been feeding myself love, safety, security and strength. I could conquer the world, be anybody, d anything when I was eating. When I …

…shone upon me, exposing the person I had become. Student and employee by day—binger, purger, exerciser and starver by night. I felt revolted but couldn’t run. I could no longer binge, purge, starve or overeat—my body was utterly exhausted. My emotions were painful well beyond my control. My recovery began. For the next four years, I experienced emotions I held inside me, emotions that I previously had been too afraid to feel.”